I feel wanted, I feel desired

in a way I don't think I have ever felt.

I have loved - at times deeply - and I have felt loved to a degree a few times along the way. But no one has ever made me feel wanted, or desired or REALLY loved. Like I am enough.

Depeche Mode - I feel loved

It's the dark night of my soul
And temptations taking hold
But through the pain and the suffering
Through the heartache and trembling

I feel loved
I feel loved

As the darkness closes in
In my head I hear whispering
Questioning and beckoning
But I'm not taken in

I feel loved
I feel loved

From the depths of my emptiness
Comes a feeling of inner bliss
I feel wanted, I feel desired
I can feel my soul on fire

I feel loved
I feel loved

It is hard to contain this feeling. It wells up in me and wants to spill out. It makes me want to touch and feel and frolic and sigh. It makes me think things I shouldn't.

I had a very vivid premonition 3 times this week-end. I am not saying anything about it, but I am recording this here because one day I am going to come back and refer to it.

For now I am not letting fear hold me back.

I feel loved. and. I feel love.