Thinking & Feeling

“The world is a tragedy to those who feel, but a comedy to those who think.” Horace Walpole

Tuesday, 26 May 2009

Get the funk out of here!

So I have hit a little downer.

I am pretty sure it is due to a combination of all the shit with my ex (the medical aid is almost sorted, the bond and house not and now there's more...) and then compounded by the changing seasons (I sleep more in winter and have less of an urge to be up and active - which of course is what get's the blood and endorphins flowing and makes you feel happy, healthy and alive). But well right now I just want to give up and/or go to sleep or something.

I have really been struggling, and begging and pleading to get all this stuff with my ex sorted out. It takes so much mental and emotional energy though and it is simply draining and I have felt totally powerless in it all. Then by the time I get home I am exhausted from it all, and with it being cold, dark and sometimes windy and raining too the desire to run is just not there any more - especially since I have been sick in the past week.

I have been trying to book a week-end away over the June long week-end and even THAT is not simple. GAH.

I am just fed up with it all now. I just don't wanna any more! I wish I could just hide away for a few days, with no issues, responsibility, or drama. I know I am whining but that's how I feel. Whiny.

Last night instead of going out for a run, the boys and I just mucked about doing internet games and quizzes and ate a bunch of shit. So today I just feel more sluggish and blah. It is also not helping with the bloody weight I keep putting on and can't lose!

So I am going to force myself to go for a run tonight just to try to snap out of it, else tomorrow will just be the same, or worse.

Blah blah blah.
Still, I have my relentless sense of humour... I have said it before, but when that goes then we'll know it's time to get worried. :)


  1. I am missing my excercise - it does definately effect your whole life!

    Dam exams are eating all my spare time :(

    this too shall pass!

  2. Sorry you feel so blah, presume you are on happy pills to get over the past year and this stressful one? If not, maybe ask your doc?

  3. Laura: *hugs* to you too. I know you are going through a tough time too.

    Mel: Nope no happy pills here. I prefer to deal with the problem head on (for myself) rather than medicating, as I don't feel medicating is a good long term solution - for anything (again for ME). I can generally work out what's wrong with me - physically and/or mentally and work at fixing it again. Thanks for the concern though. :)

  4. Ai Jane, they really are piling it on you. Its a load of crap.
    If you can't get a getaway spot then stay at my house...and I'll arrange a high adventure boat trip for the boys. They can play golf, tennis, beach, bike and j-board in our village. We are away then so you can chillout in peace.

  5. i'm RIGHT there on the blah blah blah.

  6. Thanks for the extremely kind offer Meriel! Wow. That sounds great. Is that a limited one time only offer?? ;)
    I have managed to sort out a booking in the cottage we wanted to go to so it is now arranged. We'll be far away from everything, including electricity and cell phone reception. BLISS!