Verb-all

Quite a few people have done this, so here we go...

I am: alive. Free, single and ok!

I have: a horribly puffy eye from my chlorine exposure yesterday. A lesson that I need to take care of MYSELF properly too.

I know: I am strong, capable and independent.

I think: a lot. Often too much. Although I am learning to think less. It's good.

I don’t think: I want another partner like Richard again. I am learning that I want and need something quite different. (If at all).

I want: to go to Thailand again, and many many other places too.

I have: to raise my children well and put them first. It is my main responsibility always.

I like: my job and the company I work for.

I dislike: talking on the phone.

I hate: I don't hate easily. But I do hate feeling like I have let people down, or they are disappointed in me.

I dream: quite a lot. Nothing notable recently apart from quite a gruesome dream a couple of days after my mom died, about a man with a gushing bloody nose.

I fear: that I am not good enough.

I am annoyed: by too much clutter, noise and mess. It makes me feel unable to be mentally calm.

I crave: Peanut Butter

I usually: Run 20-40km per week. I LOVE it.

I search: for contentment and comfort (emotional mostly)

I hide: behind humour sometimes.

I wonder: if my children will end up feeling about me, the way I felt about my mom. I really really hope not, and I try hard to prevent that from happening.

I know: I am ok. I know myself (now).

I just can’t help: having a 16-year old boy sense of humour.

I regret: giving up the Ubuntu job. Even though I really HAD to. That was really phenomenal. I still miss it lots 3 years later.

I love: quietly but deeply. I am a bit reserved about showing love openly now.

I can’t live without: yoga. It keeps me sane, nurtured, grounded and alive.

I try to: be a good person, and do the right thing.

I enjoy: being in the mountains.

I don’t care: about status, brand names and keeping up with the Jones'.

I always: try to admit it, if I am wrong.

I never want to: re-live the last 18 months again!

I rely on: my domestic and nanny Tiny a LOT. Without her I would not have coped. She is an angel.

I believe: in being true to myself. Listening to my mind, body and soul.

I dance: terribly. But the crazy dance parties in my bedroom are the best!

I sing: The worst. Seriously I am bad. Luckily the boys haven't noticed yet and allow me to belt along badly to songs and get the lyrics wrong etc.

I argue: a lot. But I am learning not to so much. People must have their own opinions, and do their own research and come to their own conclusions. I am not going to argue with people about their beliefs and opinions.

I write: on my blog as a record, release and way to vent. There's nowhere I else I can really do that.

I win: running beer challenges!

I lose: not much. I am quite organised and together with keeping track of stuff.

I wish: I could work half-day and spend the afternoons with my boys.

I listen: to music as much as I can.

I don’t understand: why almost every relationship I know (long term and otherwise) seems to be splitting up now. It saddens me that almost no one can really make it work now.

I’m scared of: screwing up my children.

I forget: not much.

I am happy: when I feel safe, loved and enough.