Thinking & Feeling

“The world is a tragedy to those who feel, but a comedy to those who think.” Horace Walpole

Sunday, 31 May 2009

Whales at Kommetjie

55+ Pilot whales beached on Kommetjie Beach Cape Town on Saturday 30 May 2009 - including some very young babies. All of them died.

Sjoe what an emotional experience that was.... we went to see the whales at about 17:00 last night.

Most had been euthanised already but there were 3-4 still alive in the water and people were still trying to rescue them, to no avail, and I am pretty sure those had to be shot in the end as well.

They managed to get a few back out into the water earlier in the day but they just kept coming back and there was nothing that could be done to prevent it.

Apparently years ago (many hundreds or even thousands) there was a channel from Kommetjie to Fish Hoek and the whales could pass through there instead of going around Cape Point. It seems that for some reason these whales thought they could pass through there still and were doggedly determined to go that way. So even when pulled away off the beach they came back either to the same spot or a little further down the beach...

It was incredibly sad and devastating, but also quite majestic and special to see them. Also to see the outpouring of love and concern from the people who were wading into the freezing water in their clothing to try to comfort and even attempting to push the whales back towards the sea. Some people were taking their t-shirts off to drape over the whales to keep them wet while there was still hope of saving them.

More pics here:

Nothing you can do but you can learn how to be you...

All You Need Is Love -The Beatles

Love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love.
There's nothing you can do that can't be done.
Nothing you can sing that can't be sung.
Nothing you can say but you can learn how to play the game
It's easy.
There's nothing you can make that can't be made.
No one you can save that can't be saved.
Nothing you can do but you can learn how to be you
in time - It's easy.

All you need is love, all you need is love,
All you need is love, love, love is all you need.
Love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love.
All you need is love, all you need is love,
All you need is love, love, love is all you need.
There's nothing you can know that isn't known.
Nothing you can see that isn't shown.
Nowhere you can be that isn't where you're meant to be.
It's easy.
All you need is love, all you need is love,
All you need is love, love, love is all you need.
All you need is love (all together now)
All you need is love (everybody)
All you need is love, love, love is all you need.

Friday, 29 May 2009

I am now a bovine deity!

My director just walked past and said, 'What time is our meeting?'

So I said, 'In and hour'

He hesitated, and then said, 'Holy Cow'

I said, 'erm...Thanks'

Grumpy Mo-Fo (Network Eng) says, 'Dude you can't speak to your staff like that.'

I said, 'No really it's ok, most people just call me FAT cow!' ;)

Smart Move or Nerdy Suck Up?

It's our performance appraisal season here at work.

We have already had the 180 & 360 degree feedback cycles, and now yesterday and today we get to sit with our managers (or in my case director) and do our full performance appraisal.

It is the first PA I have had with this company after starting here in mid-June last year. This has also been the most stressful and disrupted year of my life. When I started here I was coming to grips with single parenting, initiating divorce proceedings, being screened (physically & psychologically) to be an egg donor, trying to learn how to date again (after 13+ years), trying to keep my household running and having to do all the shopping, fetching & carrying and all that goes with that, support my sister through her divorce, and I had some heated /interesting phone conversations with my ex, lawyer, egg donor coordinator, and various teachers. I also had to take time to do all the egg donor scans and injections (including some jabs right here at work) as well as probably being a bit weird and hormonal while going through that whole process. I had to take time off to meet with teachers to discuss the boys and how they were really struggling to cope. This included finding and hiring a play therapist to see the boys weekly and communicating with her regularly about progress and issues, and trying to keep the boy's lives as stable, structured and settled as I could. I also tried to keep my own sanity by carrying on with running etc.

2 weeks after starting here I took 2 weeks leave to take the boys to Thailand, on what was MEANT to be my 10 year anniversary celebration trip. A month later I took 2 consecutive days off sick (I almost NEVER take sick leave, and 2 days is almost unheard of) because I had bad flu.

Then I took a day off for the egg donor retrieval and mere days later took another day off for my divorce court appearance and all the drama that went with it.

Then I had the break-in and came in late the day after having been awake since 4:30am and dealing with the police all morning. Then the fun task of dealing with the insurance replacement people and trying to find and get stuff to replace the stolen things.

Then there was all the stuff with my ex and the kids and him just not coping or cooperating with anything and rejecting Quinn and and and. I even burst into frustrated tears a few times at work. (Something I would NEVER have done before) Thankfully my manager at the time was a great guy who I am still good friends with and he was going through a messy divorce himself so he understood and supported me quietly and without question.

Then I met and fell deeply in love with someone. Thinking it was really something extraordinary. It consumed a lot of my thoughts and activity. Until 5 months later with a broken heart I realised he just didn't feel the same about me, at all. I was heart broken. So I ended it. But I would sit at work, and cry at my desk, like a bloody teenager. It was pathetic.

Now recently we have had all the drama with my ex medical-aid and the house transfer which I needed to sort out.

So I have not necessarily been the most focused and productive employee of all time! In fact reading that I am surprised I managed to hold my job down at all.

But I think I have settled in well here. I enjoy the job I have and I like the company and team I work with. I think I do my job pretty well, and seem to get good feedback most of the time. Our director is mostly a good guy and we have a good casual relationship with him.

Yesterday he asked me if I wanted my PA 'today or tomorrow?', so I asked which day he was going to be in a better mood ;) I then said, 'No make it tomorrow, I'll bring you a muffin'.

So today on the way to work I stopped and brought muffins. hey with the history I have above I'll do anything which may help.... no wait not ANYTHING! But I'll do a muffin... no wait! Ag you know what I mean! ;)

How to break an Affrikaans Accountant...

*Long story short* We have an horrifically slow and inefficient SQL query here that interrogates about 1M records etc etc and right at the end it decides to actually check the date range required... DUMB!

Anyway I just logged a job to archive anything older than a year, since in 90% of cases more than that is not needed, and to optimise the code as well. This query is resulting in about 1000 slow SQL query emails a week (as in over 25 seconds slow!) of course the 1000 emails slows the network down further.

Hey it's my PA today, so I am doing a little 'see how proactive and innovative I am' trip ;)

Anyhoo. I ran it by the accounts manager who I am on very good terms with. He was ok with it, or at least he pretended to understand what I was talking about.... but then pretended he was upset about 'losing' all the history.

He came past a while later and said, 'I feel diluted' to which I chirped, 'Don't you mean truncated?' and he was like 'Huh? Don't confuse me with your big words' to which I replied 'Ok, let me ameliorate that' ... I think I broke him ;)

Later I am going to ask him if I can concatenate something for him ;)

Thursday, 28 May 2009

My get up and go...

Came BACK! Woohoo!

This is due to a combination of factors:
- I have been eating properly again (I feel really crap when I eat crap.)
- I have been exercising properly again. For the past 2 nights I have run 8km and used the gym's Power Plate, which really is a feel good machine. I <3 style="font-weight: bold;">enough sleep. Going to bed consistently by 11:30pm on the week nights instead of staying up way past 12! (I love sleep, particularly in winter.)
- I have fixed my work PC's sound issue and can listen to music again. (Music is very important to me and taps into my emotional side.)
- My medical aid is sorted. (I could live without it for me, but do not feel comfortable about not having medical aid for the kids.)
- My house transfer is now finally in progress! I am SO relieved about this. (The possibility of losing my house was not a nice thing to deal with!)
- My week-end away is booked and day of leave granted. Very much looking forward to this.
- Work is more or less in control.
- It's nearly the week-end. I'm thinking soup, fires, wine and foot rubs are on the menu.

All in all quite a few reasons to be cheerful!

Wednesday, 27 May 2009

Is the end really in sight...?

The forms needed for my house transfer are signed!

I've scanned them and sent them in to the lawyer (paid a whole lot more money), and now I just need to get the original forms to the lawyer asap and wait for the formal Transfer application to be processed via SARS and the Deeds office and then it should be done.


Keep you fingers crossed that this all goes smoothly from here please.

Tuesday, 26 May 2009

Let's talk about SCS ....

So I was watching an episode of SCRUBS with the boys earlier when JD barged into Turk and Carla's bedroom.

Turk says, 'JD you can't just barge into someone's bedroom! Did you used to walk into your parent's bedroom like that when you were growing up?'
JD says, 'Yes.... once' and thinks back and you see a kiddie version of him standing next to a bed saying 'Dad why are you using mom as a wheelbarrow?'

Griffin turns to me and giggles and says 'I know what they were doing!'
I said 'What?'
He said 'I can't say... it's RUDE'
I eventually coax it out of him and he consents to write it down for me cos he can't say it.... On a piece of paper he wrote and then spelled out for me 'S C S'

LMAO, that has got to be one of the cutest things EVER. He has obviously heard people spelling out 'SEX' and doesn't really know what that means or spells.

Get the funk out of here!

So I have hit a little downer.

I am pretty sure it is due to a combination of all the shit with my ex (the medical aid is almost sorted, the bond and house not and now there's more...) and then compounded by the changing seasons (I sleep more in winter and have less of an urge to be up and active - which of course is what get's the blood and endorphins flowing and makes you feel happy, healthy and alive). But well right now I just want to give up and/or go to sleep or something.

I have really been struggling, and begging and pleading to get all this stuff with my ex sorted out. It takes so much mental and emotional energy though and it is simply draining and I have felt totally powerless in it all. Then by the time I get home I am exhausted from it all, and with it being cold, dark and sometimes windy and raining too the desire to run is just not there any more - especially since I have been sick in the past week.

I have been trying to book a week-end away over the June long week-end and even THAT is not simple. GAH.

I am just fed up with it all now. I just don't wanna any more! I wish I could just hide away for a few days, with no issues, responsibility, or drama. I know I am whining but that's how I feel. Whiny.

Last night instead of going out for a run, the boys and I just mucked about doing internet games and quizzes and ate a bunch of shit. So today I just feel more sluggish and blah. It is also not helping with the bloody weight I keep putting on and can't lose!

So I am going to force myself to go for a run tonight just to try to snap out of it, else tomorrow will just be the same, or worse.

Blah blah blah.
Still, I have my relentless sense of humour... I have said it before, but when that goes then we'll know it's time to get worried. :)

Monday, 25 May 2009

Seredipty can be rocking!

This past week-end I was going to be completely alone. The boys were with their dad and as it turned out everyone else was away and/or not getting along with me. Mostly the former. ;)

So I was thinking there was going to be lots of time running, sleeping, reading and just being on my own. Well as it turned out I was not alone at all. Serendipitously it turned out to be a really lovely companionable and sociable week-end after all.

A was supposed to be up in Pretoria until early this week, but was suddenly able to return late on Friday and so plans changed and instead of entering the Darling Half Marathon just for something to do (seriously), I was able to cancel that ludicrous idea. Yay!

Instead on Saturday morning we went off to the Old Biscuit Mill market together to check out the stalls, art and clothing etc and then we settled into the food market there to have a delicious glass of Merlot accompanied by the most expensive pizza this side of Italy! Look it had REAL Parma ham & fresh Parmesan, olives, 12 year old balsamic vinegar, rocket, and avo... the setting was fab and quite European and the company was good, so I just pretended I was in Italy and we'd paid Euros and it didn't seem so bad anymore! But yeah R120 for a pizza is rather steep! (But then I got lunch boxes for the boys at a local plastic shop for R2.50 each just before that, so I guess it balanced out ;) )

After that we headed off to town, at first in search of more red wine to go with the lovely over cast weather, but somehow got side tracked in the government gardens feeding the squirrels and a goose (ouch ouch ouch) ;) for a while. And then up into the Mount Nelson gardens where one can saunter around as if one owns the place, so as not to rouse suspicions of the inconspicuous but vigilant security guards, before one makes a speedy but nonchalant exit again, before one is unceremoniously removed. Where one then pretends to all and sundry on the outside that one is indeed staying at the Nellie, as one does you know. (Hahaha, I am SO full of it!).

Then we scuttled along to the infamous "lips" so see what was showing. Decided a movie was a swell way to pass some time. So more walking was done around the Cape High and Supreme Court district (memories of Divorce Court appearance followed - joyous - NOT) to retrieve the abandoned car and bring it closer to the secondary Lips theatre (Is it The Labia Minora then?) ;)

With yet more time to spare before our movie we popped into Caramellos (what a yummy name!) for Chai, Wine and a delicious Thai Chicken wrap. Then on to the movie, we saw Slumdog Millionaire, which I had seen 6+ weeks or so ago, but I enjoyed just as much a second time (apart from the few minutes where I had a little nap, oops). Still the end had me bawling my eyes out shamelessly and very unattractively. Sniff and snort. Real snot en trane stuff. A, the perfect gentleman, afforded me the courtesy of having my snivel without derision, ridicule or contempt and simply gave me license to do my thing, with a big comforting hug to show solidarity with it. Thereby earning 1000 brownie points.

Emerging from that feeling rather cathartised (is that even a word? It is now!) I was ready to tackle Long Street. So off we walked. It was really fun walking everywhere. It's good to do that sometimes. You can feel like a tourist in your own town and it's really nice. Go and be on the streets and see it as tourists do, and as yours as you see OTHER cities.

We found our way to Stones in Long Street where playing pool is pretty much madatory. In my case the skills are rather dubious but enough beer, and some added tequilla gives me the appearance of being able to sort of play, if you squint, look away and are prepared to play for about 2 hours per game. I don't really care, I still have fun, and hey I even won a game! (ok only one out of 4, but that's not terrible). :)

After that was made our way to The Dublinner to meet with Lynne (friend and colleague) for her birthday bash. A few other peeps from work were there and we had a few drinks and tried to dance a bit but the music was beyond kak. Imagine the shittest karaoke type covers of shit old music (Think Tina Turner 'Simply the Best'. I mean REALLY NOW!). So we gave up after a while and made our way to Baghdad Cafe which was playing some rather nice Tribal Trancy music, which captivated me for a while until I realised staying upright was becoming an effort and it was definitely time to head home!

I have to say that has got to be one of the most fun, unexpected, unplanned and simply unfolding organic days in like - forever. It was just fun, varied, relaxing, exciting, interesting and different, while being nice and ordinary at the same time.



Quite a few people have been doing these...


What is your salad dressing of choice? Balsamic Reduction
What is your favorite sit-down restaurant? Beluga
What food could you eat for 2 weeks straight and not get sick of? Sushi or Soup
What are your pizza toppings of choice? Pepperdews, Olives, Spinach, Feta
What do you like to put on your toast? Avo & Hummus or Peanut Butter


How many televisions are in your house? 1, and it is usually off :)
What color cell phone do you have? Black and iridescent blue.
What does the first text message in your inbox say and who sent it? It's from the bank telling me to collect my new credit card.
Who was the last person to call you? Discovery health to tell me my membership is being processed as we speak. YAY!


Are you right-handed or left-handed? Right
Have you ever had anything removed from your body? Wisdom teeth only.
When was the last time you were really ill? I am never really ill. I don't think I ever have been.
What is the last heavy item you lifted? One of my kids. I still pick them up sometimes. They weigh between 27-30kgs each.


If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die? No not really. Doesn't really make a difference to me either way.
If you could change your name, what would you change it to? Yes I would change back to my maiden name if it weren't an admin nightmare. I have accepted my first name.


How many pairs of flip flops do you own? 5!
Last time you had a run-in with the cops? Last time I dealt with the was Sept last year when my house was broken into and I called them to come help.
Last person you talked to in person? My colleagues here.
Favourite Month? December - always fun and exciting, and that's when MCQP is :)


Missing someone? A little.
Mood? Weird and lethargic, and craving carbs and shit.
Watching? The clock!
Worrying about? My house transfer. Whether my ex is getting himself into MORE shit with illegal substances.


What’s the last movie you watched? Slumdog Millionaire - again. I cried - again.
What music are you busy listening to? Snowpatrol.
Do you always answer your phone? Most of the time. But not always. I don't love the phone.
It’s four in the morning and you get a text message, who is it? I mostly don't get 4am text messages. I got a few 2:30am text messages from Brazil, but that seems like a lifetime ago now.
If you could change your eye color what would it be? More blue maybe, but I don't really care about that.
Do you own a digital camera? Yes, several, none of them very good.
Have you ever had a pet fish? Yes I had 5 pet gold fish named after Philosophers.
Favorite Christmas song? Hrm... not a huge fan of the genre but. 'Have yourself a Merry Little Christmas.'
What’s on your wish list for your birthday? I don't usually have a list for birthdays and such. I am growing to love Body Shop stuff though ;)
Can you do push ups? Yes, a few.
Does the future make you more nervous or excited? Excited is too strong a word... I am just moving forward at this point.
Do you have any saved texts? Yes, but not many. I was keeping some special ones, but they are deleted now.
Ever been in a car wreck? No. I had a minor accident I caused myself but it was very minor.
Do you have an accent? No not really. I am told I sound a little British though.
What is the last song to make you cry? Snowpatrol 'You Could Be Happy' but that was a few weeks ago.
Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom? Yes last year just before I got divorced.
Name 3 things you bought today? Nothing today... oh wait I lie, 3x Wilson's toffees.
Have you ever been given roses? Yes, recently twice. The most beautiful roses I have ever been given (or seen) in fact.
Met someone who changed your life? Definitely
What song represents you? ‘Everybody's Changing’ – Keane
What were you doing @ +/-12 AM last night? Sleeping
What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up? Do I have to wake up now? ;)

Friday, 22 May 2009

When someone gets it....

I have learned that I am strong, capable, resilient and even brave. But not all the time. Sometimes I flounder. Sometimes I feel tired, weak, defeated, sad, sick or uncertain.

Some people don't know how to deal with that. They either retreat and avoid it altogether, or they leap in and try to take over and fix, advise, do, or control. But that's not what is wanted or needed.

Sometimes all you want is for someone to care. For someone to tell you that you are ok, and will be ok. To give you a hug. To care and to be there.

It is really nice to have someone say I am here. I care. I hear you.

It fills your heart and makes you feel whole and strong and capable and resilient and even brave.

"Today, if a smile comes to you, a happy smile that perhaps you can’t explain, it’s because in that moment I am thinking of you and smiling too."

Thursday, 21 May 2009

Very proud mommy moment.

First a confession. I sometimes resort to 'parenting by bribery' although I have been told a better term is 'sensible rewarding system'. ;) How does this work? Well kid needs or wants something - which they would most likely get anyway - but instead of just giving it, you devise a way for them to earn it. Thereby you get something back in return, either they do something for you, or they cooperate or behave or what-have-you for said benefit. Hey don't knock it, it works!

So the boys get pocket money semi-regularly which they can use if we go out etc. This week was the school's Grade 7 fair, where the Grade 7s show their entrepreneurial flair and make stuff to sell at break time for a profit. All the younger kids flock around with their money to bargain and buy whatever is on offer. It's a pretty big deal - especially for Quinn who is a master bargainer. Seriously this child will bargain someone down to cost price, buy something and then sell it for a profit... and to OLDER kids usually. He has a knack!

So anyhow I decided I would give the boys some money to take to school to spend at the fair. But I told them I'd decide how much to give them in the morning after I had seen how well the evening had gone in terms of homework, dinner and bedtime and if they were ready on time and cooperating in the morning.

Come the morning they were ready on time and good as gold. So I checked my purse and I had a R20, a R10 and aR5 coin. Hrm. I had intended to give them R20 each. So I got in the car and explained the situation and I said one would have to get R20, and one would have to get R15 and we were going to have to vote on who we thought deserved the R20... Yeah yeah, I can hear you thinking, 'This is not going to end well', believe me I was thinking the same thing!

So I ask Griffin first and he said he thought HE deserved it, because he had read so beautifully the night before (he did!) etc etc. Fair enough. I agreed that he had a good case. I then put the question to Quinn. Knowing we were about to hit a tie-breaker situation.... He thought and then said, 'Yes, I agree Griffin should get it. Because he really did try hard with his reading and I am proud of him'. Well knock me down with a feather! I totally did not see that coming!

In fact I was so blown away I told him I was extremely proud of him and spoke to Griffin and said I was So proud of Quinn and his display of magnanimous generosity that although he won I think we should give the prize to Quinn for being so (uncharacteristically) unselfish. And blow me down if Griffin didn't agree and say he thinks Quinn was very kind too and deserved the reward for this!

So I gave Quinn the R20 and Griffin the R15 and double checked that he was happy, and he said 'Yes, I think it's fine. I am really proud of Quinn for being so nice'. With that Quinn says, 'When I buy something and get change I am going to come and find you Griffin and I will give you R2'. And off they went to school arm in arm. Awwww!

You won't believe the grin on my face all the way to work after that. That was really heart warming!

How I felt yesterday....

Today I get to sort out all the shit... on my own. As usual.

Thanks for nothing!

Wednesday, 20 May 2009

The heart-ache and the thousand natural shocks

To be, or not to be (from Hamlet 3/1) - William Shakespeare

To be, or not to be: that is the question:
Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer
The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune,
Or to take arms against a sea of troubles,
And by opposing end them? To die: to sleep;
No more; and by a sleep to say we end
The heart-ache and the thousand natural shocks
That flesh is heir to, 'tis a consummation
Devoutly to be wish'd. To die, to sleep;
To sleep: perchance to dream: ay, there's the rub;
For in that sleep of death what dreams may come
When we have shuffled off this mortal coil,
Must give us pause: there's the respect
That makes calamity of so long life;
For who would bear the whips and scorns of time,
The oppressor's wrong, the proud man's contumely,
The pangs of despised love, the law's delay,
The insolence of office and the spurns
That patient merit of the unworthy takes,
When he himself might his quietus make
With a bare bodkin? who would fardels bear,
To grunt and sweat under a weary life,
But that the dread of something after death,
The undiscover'd country from whose bourn
No traveller returns, puzzles the will
And makes us rather bear those ills we have
Than fly to others that we know not of?
Thus conscience does make cowards of us all;
And thus the native hue of resolution
Is sicklied o'er with the pale cast of thought,
And enterprises of great pith and moment
With this regard their currents turn awry,
And lose the name of action. - Soft you now!
The fair Ophelia! Nymph, in thy orisons
Be all my sins remember'd.

Tuesday, 19 May 2009


I think I have been patient... more than patient, but now I am fucking frustrated!!! I could pull my hair out.

I was officially divorced on 2 September 2008. That's more than 8 months ago. You'd think that was plenty of time to sort out the paper work. Right? ... Well think again!

Richard decide to include the house in my side of the divorce agreement at the (literal) eleventh hour. So we changed our divorce agreement on the DAY of our divorce, just an hour before I appeared in court, to reflect this change. It was HIS decision and HIS request. Not mine.

And so it was decreed that the house was to be transferred into my name. I knew the result of this was that I was getting everything. Not only the house but also the responsibility of paying for it in its entirety. I wasn't actually sure if I could do this, but I knew I'd find a way. I'd have to.

So I started the maddening process of applying to get the bond transferred into my name and hit endless challenges and issues with the banks, including being told I didn't even qualify for a bond that big! It was hugely stressful, time consuming and difficult for me, but I slogged on through it all while holding down my job, sorting out all the other divorce admin and changes, maintaining my household alone, looking after my children, getting them through school and arranging therapy for them to deal with the divorce and all the shit their father was putting them through with his unstable and self-absorbed behaviour.

I eventually managed to get a bank to agree to grant me a bond and got all the legal documents, inspections, valuations, etc. ad infinitum arranged and done. On 19 December 2008 I signed all the documents in triplicate. It was finally all sorted out. All that remained was Richard's signature on the forms and the transfer was expected to go through within a matter of weeks.

Fast forward to 19 May 2009.

Those documents are STILL not signed. He is now evidently unemployed and has decided to stop paying his accounts. The bond is now at least 2 months in arrears. It seems our medical aid and life insurance is about to lapse, and the bank may just decide to repossess our freaking home. Because the stupid fucking shit is too lazy to BOTHER to go sign the god damn documents!!!

I may decide to delete this post soon. But OMG I can not hold this in any more. I can not wait to be free of this shit and once the house is sorted out I will no longer deal with anything administrative with him again!

His bank and other institutions are phoning me to find out where he is. He doesn't answer his phone or emails or anything. His way of dealing with a problem is to hide away and pretend it's not there.

I knew this was going to happen and I knew when I got the house that he was going to disappear in some way and the boys and I would be on our own.

Just when I thought things were slowly starting to come right and that there was hope that we could talk and get along again....

Sjoe man this makes me SO tired.

Monday, 18 May 2009

Milkwood 10km Results

The Milkwood Race results are out. They are HERE

My results are:
87 WEIDEMAN JANE 35 F 0:53:21

I came 87th out of 681 10km finishers. Which is in the top 15%

I was the 27th female finisher out of the 421 women that completed the 10km. In the top 7%

Random & Cryptic

Thoughts and Feelings ... in images.

Friday, 15 May 2009

Black holes and revelations

Muse - Starlight

Far away
The ship is taking me far away
Far away from my memories
Of the people who care if I live or die

I will be chasing your starlight
Until the end of my life
I don't know if it's worth it any more

And hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
You in my arms

My life
You electrify my life
Lets conspire to re-ignite
All the souls that would die just to feel alive

But I'll never let you go
If you promise not to fade away
Never fade away

Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations

Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
You in my arms

Far away
The ship is taking me far away
Far away from my memories
Of the people who care if I live or die

I'll never let you go
If you promise not to fade away
Never fade away

Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations

Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
You in my arms

I just wanted to hold

Wednesday, 13 May 2009

And so it is

This song is beautiful...

Damien Rice - The Blowers Daughter

And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her sky

I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

And so it is
Just like you said it should be
We'll both forget the breeze
Most of the time
And so it is
The colder water
The blower's daughter
The pupil in denial

I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

Did I say that I loathe you?
Did I say that I want to
Leave it all behind?

I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind...
My mind...
'Til I find somebody new

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Go Outside and Play!

JaneW in Capetown knows how to stay active with her family: "We cycle, skateboard, climb trees and mountains and generally play the fool!"

Monday, 11 May 2009

Spar Ladies Race Results - at last

Ok, 3 running posts in a row...

The Spar Ladies Race Results have also finally been published. (or at least I finally found them, I am not sure why they insist on hiding these results away and not publishing them where EVERY OTHER race results go, but whatever...) They are HERE.

So in this year's Spar Ladies Race where I ran my personal best time for a 10km race I did as follows:

The winner:
1 13094 KALMER RENE 28 O MRPRICE 35:22

148 15255 WEIDEMAN JANE TEMP 51:35

The last in:
4667 12613 MOUNEIMNE FARAH 22 O TEMP 2:32:15

Wow I came 148th!

Safari Half Marathon Results

The Safari Half Marathon Results have been released.

The full listing can be found HERE.

This is how I faired:

The winning man:

The winning lady:
49 AMUTOKO ANNA 1636 26 F O MPTKEI 1:20:08

1241 WEIDEMAN JANE 3884 35 F O TEMP 1:56:36

1612 DUPONT JEREMIE 3897 32 M O TEMP 2:02:28

The last person in:
3762 YIGA HELEN 4010 31 F O TEMP 4:32:30

So I came 1241th out of 3762, which is in the top 1/3rd of the field. And 224th out of 1330 women, which is in the top 1/6th! AND I beat Jeremie by nearly 6 minutes!

For my very first attempt at a half marathon I am very happy with how I did :)