Get the funk out of here!

So I have hit a little downer.

I am pretty sure it is due to a combination of all the shit with my ex (the medical aid is almost sorted, the bond and house not and now there's more...) and then compounded by the changing seasons (I sleep more in winter and have less of an urge to be up and active - which of course is what get's the blood and endorphins flowing and makes you feel happy, healthy and alive). But well right now I just want to give up and/or go to sleep or something.

I have really been struggling, and begging and pleading to get all this stuff with my ex sorted out. It takes so much mental and emotional energy though and it is simply draining and I have felt totally powerless in it all. Then by the time I get home I am exhausted from it all, and with it being cold, dark and sometimes windy and raining too the desire to run is just not there any more - especially since I have been sick in the past week.

I have been trying to book a week-end away over the June long week-end and even THAT is not simple. GAH.

I am just fed up with it all now. I just don't wanna any more! I wish I could just hide away for a few days, with no issues, responsibility, or drama. I know I am whining but that's how I feel. Whiny.


Last night instead of going out for a run, the boys and I just mucked about doing internet games and quizzes and ate a bunch of shit. So today I just feel more sluggish and blah. It is also not helping with the bloody weight I keep putting on and can't lose!

So I am going to force myself to go for a run tonight just to try to snap out of it, else tomorrow will just be the same, or worse.

Blah blah blah.
Still, I have my relentless sense of humour... I have said it before, but when that goes then we'll know it's time to get worried. :)