Thinking & Feeling

“The world is a tragedy to those who feel, but a comedy to those who think.” Horace Walpole

Monday 17 May 2010

The truth is...

I have had a hard couple of weeks. I am tired. Emotionally.

I need a soft place to land.

There is so much I want to do, see, get, give and be... but I am starting to wonder if I ever will. I feel like I am and have been waiting for something that is never going to arrive.

I am starting to stop caring, stop hoping, stop striving. I am disillusioned.

I have had enough.

Snow Patrol "Run"

I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

Slower slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads

Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

7 comments:

  1. James Stansell18 May 2010 at 05:58

    Hi Jane,

    Yesterday I started reading a book called _Feeling_Good_ by Dr David D Burns. I had it highly recommended by several people. Not sure how you feel about reading but you may like to give it a go.

    Regards,

    -james.

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  2. Let me know if there's anything I can do for you!

    Big hugs from Berlin,
    Daniel

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  3. Oh girl - wish I was closer, so here's a virtual hug.

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  4. no idea if talking helps but i am around for a coffee and a moan, or wine or just a chat. Shout if I can help ((hugs))

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  5. Thanks guys... I think I just keep digging the whole deeper for myself... maybe I'll get out (or through) eventually though.

    No one really understands me or I have just made myself impenetrable or something. I don't know....

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  6. Sally we must make a plan to get together! Really.

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